I think I'm starting to fall for Boomerang. Sorry Lavi.

I look back at the way things used to be before I got together with Steamin' Demon and it makes my stomach turn. I thought maybe I should start off by letting everyone know that my hate for Vekoma and Arrow Dynamics (now S&S Power) is no longer hate. I don't hate them anymore.
The very reason I hated them in the first place was because when my father and I would go to Six Flags New England he would FORCE me to ride Mind Eraser and sometimes Flashback because I swear he knew how much I hated it. At first it was a joke, but it turned into "you ride these or you don't go to Six Flags". I don't know what I did to piss him off so much but something I did really got to him. Plus I really wanted to go to Six Flags. I'm a thrill junkie to the point I go insane without rides so I like really need them to feel that sensation. Rides are like my drug. They have been since I was 10 and able to ride my first roller coaster. (yes I was tall enough but barely, I had to wear shoes that made me taller lol because I really was desperate to ride a roller coaster) My hate became real when I got two teeth knocked out on Mind Eraser. Then it became severe when I had an earring ripped out another time. I really hated Mind Eraser more than Flashback but since Flashback was rough I hated it too. Then when I started understanding the manufacturers I found that Flashback and Mind Eraser are made by the same company. I started to hate them so much. And when we would go to Great Adventure my dad would force me to ride Scream Machine too. Because Arrow Dynammics is like... Vekoma's sister company or something. _{srsly look at how similar Vekoma and Arrow's track design is. You can hardly tell the difference.} There were times I wanted to run away but he'd hold me back. I felt TRAPPED when I was in that train. There were times where the ride was about to start and I would kick and scream, and push up on the restraints with all my strength. Every single time they stopped and asked if I wanted off but my dad would just tell them that I was just afraid and joking around and that everything is okay. Every day we went to Great Adventure he would make me ride Scream Machine with him several times in a row. Every time we went to New England he would make me ride Mind Eraser several times in a row. Sometimes Flashback too. I had to ride them with him like 6 times every visit before I could go on rides like Superman, and Batman, and Kingda Ka and Nitro.

Before I fell for Steamin' Demon it had been a while since we went to Great Escape. But when my dad took me there the day I fell in love I was about to snap but since Lavi and I were friends by then I said I'd ride the Boomerang for her willingly. I'd actually say "hey dad let's go over to the Boomerang first" so we did. Riding it without feeling forced kind of put me at ease and I didn't hate it as much. I actually had a respect for it for Lavi. That started me off in a really good mood. So we rode Boomerang like 4 times in a row then my dad let me ride Comet a few times. After that we headed over to Steamin' Demon. This was mandatory before I could get on Comet more and then Alpine Bobsled for my first time of the day. But since I was in a good mood from the peace with Boomerang I did this thinking that maybe Lavi would be proud if I rode Steamin' Demon willingly too. So although this was a mandatory moment I rode Steamin' Demon with the same state of mind I had riding the Boomerang. I didn't feel as trapped as I normally would have felt. And I don't have the slightest understanding of what went through my mind but for once thanks to Lavi's advice to look past the roughness I ended up enjoying it. There's stuff that happened that is far too personal to explain here that is between Steamin' Demon and I that I haven't even told my girlfriend. But stuff went on and I fell in love. If Lavi hadn't told me the things she did before I went, I don't think I'd be the same way I am right now. My dad has no idea I like Steamin' Demon the way I do. He still thinks I hate Vekoma and Arrow.
But all this time I was hating the wrong thing. After falling in love with Steamin' Demon and having a little respect for Arrow and Vekoma and especially Lavi's favorites which happen to be at the parks we go to the most often... I realize that I shouldn't hate the rides and the manufacturers. Agreeing with ~Raikou-the-hedgehog; the rides mean no harm to anyone.
Taking my anger out on THEM was very wrong and misguided of me. What I should hate is what my DAD did. I should hate that he FORCED me to ride them. I should hate that HE made me spend time with them when I wanted to do other things that I was more comfortable with.

I truly am sorry. I was mad at the wrong thing.
If you guys remember me being a sick twisted bitch I hope you'll understand why I was the way I was after reading this.

I wish I could tell my dad why I all of the suddenly started to not care about how rough some of Vekoma's and Arrow's rides are. But if he knew I'm objectum-sexual now and IN LOVE with Steamin' Demon he would never let me ride another roller coaster again.

If any of that sounds like child abuse, don't worry. My dad is actually pretty cool. He never hurts me or yells at me abusively. He's just really stubborn sometimes. Ha I guess I get that from him.

...that Steamin' Demon will be okay next year too. Getting season passes again. And I'm going to stay with my aunt for the summer! So I'll be able to go to Great Escape whenever! Lavi I will watch out for Comet and Boomerang for you.

YAY my dad won't be there with me to force me to ride Mind Eraser and Flashback. Not like I really care anymore though. I wish he would realize that I've given up hating Vekoma and I really don't give a shit anymore how rough Mind Eraser and Flashback are. Steamin' Demon is rougher than both of them combined. And I love it to death.

As much as I really care for pylon 54, it isn't really what I'm in love with. T.T you guys were all right, it's a roller coaster.
Won't be saying which one will however say it's at either Great Adventure, New England or Great Escape.
But for now it's between Eon, the roller coaster, and me.

Not to worry, it isn't the ones spoken for at those places. It's not Kingda Ka, Nitro, El Toro, Medusa Bizarro, Superman Bizarro, Flashback, Mind Eraser, or Boomerang. And if I forgot one let me know. I respect your love for your roller coasters too much to even let myself fall for yours. This is why I'm hoping that the coaster I really like isn't one of them because at this point there isn't anything I can do to stop.

I hate to leave everyone hanging and questioning again about what the hell I'm talking about.
So short and simple.

Eon. my girlfriend ~E-Virus47
me. objectum-sexual. But still damn well in love with her.
Eon. loves me anyway and does not mind if I'm with a roller coaster too.
me. afraid of the world and not ready to say the name of the coaster but will have to eventually. Knowing I've got other objectum-sexual friends here that will pry it out of me. But will feel better once it's out.
me. very fucking stubborn like that.

There, I guess this is step one.
Eon originally suggested I write a journal on here, knowing I've got my os friends here that would help me if I needed it. So. I need help.

The whole pylon thing was a little setback. I care for it very much but more like a friend.
This roller coaster... I don't want to say I love it if I really don't and am just obsessed. I know there's a fine line between love and obsession. I'm just hoping this is really love...

-update!-
Lavi and I duked it out and now I actually feel comfortable saying that the roller coaster is Steamin' Demon at the Great Escape. Surprise surprise? mhmm so there.

This weekend, I will get the chance to see pylon 54! Because we will be going by there to see family in Albany. FUCKING WOOT! I'll take pictures! I just hope my mom will stop by the field!